I celebrated my first Mother's Day...the most bitter-sweet day of my life. No one should have to spend their Mother's Day at the graveside of their son, or daughter for that matter!
Ryder's headstone was set on the Thursday before, and it is beautiful! It is everything and more than we expected it would be. It was a hard and crushing realization that he truly isn't ever coming back, and we actually buried our son. When his headstone wasn't there you could almost live in a state of denial that you were visiting someone else's child. The harsh reality is that we visit our child....it says so now...
We spent Sunday in Winnemucca with my mom...She decided that London needed to experience a creme pouf! UUUGGGGHHHH, it was adorable, but I guess that's what Grandma's get to do, give them a tummy ache and send them on a 2 hour car ride! I can't wait to be a Grandma!!
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Hi....Thanks honey for the encouragement, and for sure sometimes you need someone that actually feels your pain and knows that pain to remember we are not totally alone in our little black holes, and that it is a must to come out and be thankful for the ones we do have and enjoy every minute of our time together.....
I can't believe how your baby is growing, she looks like she takes in everything.. Soooooooo CUTE!!!!! Love to everyone Aunt CHICK
You are such an inspiration to everyone. Ryders graveside is beautiful. The headstone turned out perfect. What a great experience for London. She is such a little angel. Your family all looks so great. Wish I would have known you were in town on Mother's Day! Glad you were able to come spend it with your mom. She is such a wonderful person. You can tell she is enjoying being a grandma so much to her little angel. So hard to believe London is 7 months. The time has gone so quick. She is getting so big. Love you all..
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